Appreciative

So, those of you that know me know that I am borderline neurotic about my husband being captivated by me and only me. =) Ok, so not borderline. I am pretty much over the top, psychotic. I am praying so much for God to calm my heart.I need to learn to trust Him and know that if I am seeking His will for my life then I am good. I will go back to something I learned at our marriage retreat...I am not the Holy Spirit in my husbands life. He would probably shout an amen right now if he were reading this.
I have aged and grown into this ridiculous fear of unfaithfulness. To the point that sometimes I am totally out of control and am really not fair to my husband. He is MORE than completely committed to me. You think I would stop trying to work on him and work on myself.
I just have learned through my twenty six years of life that it really doesn't take much to let your marriage fail. And that if you aren't careful...before you know it...you find yourself right in the middle of a compromising situation. It is a very slow fade into sin and sometimes we don't even see ourselves drifting there. Or even drifting away from our spouse, not neccessarily into the arms of someone else. God orders us to safeguard our hearts and our marriages. We are supposed to stay away from things that can make us stumble.
I pray that I can grasp that and become more focused on romancing my husband than panicking he might some day desire someone other than me. I am IN LOVE with the man I married seven years ago. He is precious. He is a hard working, kid loving, wife serving, always smiling, totally adorable man!I am so thankful that he is in my life and I am so thankful that I am slowly learning how to keep him there!

Girlfriends

Hello All! I haven't been blogging lately, in fact I really haven't even been on my computer much to even be reading blogs from other people. I'm ready for life to slow down some! In my dreams! Christmas and New Year's were great. My kids are great! My hubby's great. Life's ok for us right now and I have LOVED not being in school. Only one semester down and I am already complaining.


I am really praying for God to show me exactly what I'm going to have going on for the girls retreat. February is going to be here before I know it. I am SO EXCITED about those weekends and I am feeling a passion come from way down deep in my heart for young teenage girls as I prepare for this! I REALLY want to make a difference in someone's life. I am really excited and can't wait to see what God's got planned!


My mother-in-law sent me the sweetest, most encouraging, and most uplifting email tonight. She sent me a text and asked me to check my email. I did and I watched this video that she emailed and I have to share it with you! It was so awesome. I cried and spent some time....REALLY missing my girlfriends. Then, I just felt so blessed and so fortunate that there are people in my life that I don't live anywhere close to anymore and they still choose to be a part of my life. They include me in everything and they work it out to be here for me for EVERYTHING. I feel honored that my Momma Shirley loves me enough to be so thoughtful and pour out her heart to me so that I know she loves me. I feel so honored that the relationships I've had with some women were so meaningful that they will last FOREVER! And that not even distance strains the friendship that we have. I love all of the girls in my life, the ones close and the ones far away, and this video is for you my precious, beloved ladies!!!! Enjoy...and don't forget to first grab the tissues...I love you!!! (Okay, after trying for an hour, with no success, to post the actual video on my page...I am posting the link...sorry!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u_4qwVLqt9Q