Appreciative

So, those of you that know me know that I am borderline neurotic about my husband being captivated by me and only me. =) Ok, so not borderline. I am pretty much over the top, psychotic. I am praying so much for God to calm my heart.I need to learn to trust Him and know that if I am seeking His will for my life then I am good. I will go back to something I learned at our marriage retreat...I am not the Holy Spirit in my husbands life. He would probably shout an amen right now if he were reading this.
I have aged and grown into this ridiculous fear of unfaithfulness. To the point that sometimes I am totally out of control and am really not fair to my husband. He is MORE than completely committed to me. You think I would stop trying to work on him and work on myself.
I just have learned through my twenty six years of life that it really doesn't take much to let your marriage fail. And that if you aren't careful...before you know it...you find yourself right in the middle of a compromising situation. It is a very slow fade into sin and sometimes we don't even see ourselves drifting there. Or even drifting away from our spouse, not neccessarily into the arms of someone else. God orders us to safeguard our hearts and our marriages. We are supposed to stay away from things that can make us stumble.
I pray that I can grasp that and become more focused on romancing my husband than panicking he might some day desire someone other than me. I am IN LOVE with the man I married seven years ago. He is precious. He is a hard working, kid loving, wife serving, always smiling, totally adorable man!I am so thankful that he is in my life and I am so thankful that I am slowly learning how to keep him there!